1 month passed by.
It struck upon me that, "hey working life aint all rosy".
First and foremost, i never see the sun when i go back from work. There are numerous occasions i have to stay back until midnight, and sometimes until 3am. I can't imagine what will happen when i have a family on my own. Geez.
Second, it's so different from university days. I'm so missing it now. Take presentation for example, I could present the slides as I want; no restrictions of creativity. But now, the format is so strict; no animation, no as-u-wish color, no irrelevant pictures. Even the font, font size, table color, and whatever else are pre-determined. So every time u do the slides, u always have to think "is this professional?". That's not all. The preparation stage is taxing. Imagine having to read 300 pages of prospectus through n through, n brainstorm like hell. So that's part of the reason why we go back so late, and sometimes we come to office on weekends as well. All these, just for a 15-mins presentation for investors. Haha u imagine! During university days, 15-mins presentation is like nothing. :)
Third, I'm going after my dreams at the expense of my loved ones. I hate it. I have canceled so many plans with my friends because of my hectic schedule. I'm blessed that they're understanding, but hey I feel bad about it. Not to mention my family, at times they came over to my house and I wasnt even there. So they had to sit around at my house doing nothing. Of course, being someone who's grounded, i feel awful.
Yes money matters. But sometimes, money is not all that matters.
Nevertheless, I will keep holding on. I aint a quitter, never.
Maybe I still need some adjusting. I'll figure out ways for work-life balance, there must be a way isn't it.
One thing is clear though: I'm seeking for all the strength I have and I can get from Lord, for only Him can help me through. Tears won't take me places :)
It struck upon me that, "hey working life aint all rosy".
First and foremost, i never see the sun when i go back from work. There are numerous occasions i have to stay back until midnight, and sometimes until 3am. I can't imagine what will happen when i have a family on my own. Geez.
Second, it's so different from university days. I'm so missing it now. Take presentation for example, I could present the slides as I want; no restrictions of creativity. But now, the format is so strict; no animation, no as-u-wish color, no irrelevant pictures. Even the font, font size, table color, and whatever else are pre-determined. So every time u do the slides, u always have to think "is this professional?". That's not all. The preparation stage is taxing. Imagine having to read 300 pages of prospectus through n through, n brainstorm like hell. So that's part of the reason why we go back so late, and sometimes we come to office on weekends as well. All these, just for a 15-mins presentation for investors. Haha u imagine! During university days, 15-mins presentation is like nothing. :)
Third, I'm going after my dreams at the expense of my loved ones. I hate it. I have canceled so many plans with my friends because of my hectic schedule. I'm blessed that they're understanding, but hey I feel bad about it. Not to mention my family, at times they came over to my house and I wasnt even there. So they had to sit around at my house doing nothing. Of course, being someone who's grounded, i feel awful.
Yes money matters. But sometimes, money is not all that matters.
Nevertheless, I will keep holding on. I aint a quitter, never.
Maybe I still need some adjusting. I'll figure out ways for work-life balance, there must be a way isn't it.
One thing is clear though: I'm seeking for all the strength I have and I can get from Lord, for only Him can help me through. Tears won't take me places :)
